31 May 2012

Acclimation and Growing Pains

There has recently been an internal shift
and I don't now know if I've been dodged or burned.
Whether there is more or less of me to give.

Amusing, this life of mine.
Where joy and pain fuse in an incendiary union...
And ignite a stream of consciousness blog post.

Once again I'm seeking she who seems to have
slipped away in the soft smoke of sanity.

The crack of opal bones when I find my knees
reassures me that I'm still in here.
I'm here.

But tonight I can't feel my body.

Must again be the swift slap of change.

But we love playing with fire.


  1. Hang in there, my dear friend. I see you.


  2. Holding you in my heart from afar...

  3. Sunshine, you always did. Thank you for the faith and friendship. Heart.

    Catherine, thank you lady. Cheers to growing pains, and to the pleasures on the other side!

  4. I ve never commented in you blog..but just wanted to say, hang in there....

  5. Trust that you are seen, dear lady, and loved. I found this quote, and thought of you:

    “There are women who make things better... simply by showing up. There are women who make things happen. There are women who make their way. There are women who make a difference. And women who make us smile. There are women of wit and wisdom who- through strength and courage- make it through. There are women who change the world everyday... Women like you.”
    ― Ashley Rice


  6. Eva Marie Bill01 June, 2012 07:13

    <3 wish I was one of those people with amazing words. I don't have those but I do have a shoulder that's always there for you to lean on and ears wide open to listen. Love ya chick!! Your on of the toughest I know.

  7. I'm right there with Eva, Jess...I may not be able to say it eloquently, but you are an amazing woman who inspires me by simply being. <3

  8. Silver Lines, thank you. That means a lot. I'm not very good about getting around to other blogs like I need to be, but I do recognize your name, and it means a lot that you stopped by and left a comment. :)

  9. Andrea, you always find the words. :) Thank you, sweet friend.

  10. you are one talented lady! hope you get through this change well.

  11. Ahhhh, how eloquently you put words to life. As odd as those out of body moments are, they always bring some sort of insight.
    And I must say that I have a deep urge to turn that second portrait into a painting.

  12. feeling "elsewhere" myself. like a bird flitting about.

  13. Dearest JJ
    you are more than you know
    bigger than you see
    a bright light
    beyond comprehension
    your are seen
    you are appreciated
    you are precious
    She is there
    your woman inside
    just turn around
    you will see : )

    walk lightly sweet Rosy
    walk lightly

    love and light

  14. Eva, perhaps a talk over leg presses or lat raises next week. <3 and thank you for being you.

    M- Thank you, lady. A most mutual feeling. Your text meant the world!

  15. Marie- wink, wink. Thank you lady. I owe you a note.

    Cat- You have to be the most steadfast presence here. Thank you for always being ears and hands. Love and light right back.

  16. Goodness!!!

    Sandra, thank you. Likewise. :)

    Miz- Paint! And come visit.

    I don't know why I just saw the comments from you two. So sorry to have missed them before. Either blogger misfired or I did. (Most likely the latter.)